This Is Me

I am a child, a Particle, a Spark (take your pick) of that which we call God.

The thing that drives me is the desire to be as close to God as I can, as much of the time as I can. Because I am not separate from God (Source, Spirit, Universe, the Divine, take your pick) it is not so much a matter of finding God but being more aware of God’s Presence with me.

My purpose is to express what I have been made to be.

What I have been made to be is a seeker of truth, knowledge, and wisdom. To express this being I seek truth, knowledge, and wisdom wherever I am, in whatever I am doing, and in whomever I happen to be with. But, bookworm that I am, I like to read and also explore various types of spiritual practice as well.

Because truth, knowledge, and wisdom are not to be held for my own usage, I also express my being by sharing what I learn with others.

My personal mission statement therefore urges me to focus this sharing so that I “explore, share, and promote” an intimate personal relationship with the Divine not only in myself but also in others.

I am a Christian in that I strive to follow the teachings and example of Jesus of Nazareth.
However, I have also come to know that I am loved unconditionally and absolutely (as is every person), and to desire mystical experiences of God (such as Jesus himself enjoyed). These developments have all but dissolved my relationship with the church in which I grew up, for it offers me no support in the growth I desire.

As for my physical life, I am a classically trained musician, a devotee of mystery and science fiction, a lover of animals in general and cats in particular. I am a contemplative. I am overeducated for the kind of work I have had to do (I haven’t been able to make a living in music).

Now I am rebuilding my life. I became convinced that city living was hazardous to my health, I realized that I desired to make substantial changes in my life, and so I moved back to my home town in the rural Midwest.

That was just a year ago, so the changes are still growing. All too slowly! But there are signs of progress toward the new life which I desire. I will be conscious of God all around me (as well as within), I will be able to live by intention rather than by accident, and I can use my strengths to open people’s minds and hearts to a new kind of relationship with our Creator.

It is time for us to stop arguing and start working together if humanity is to survive. I believe with all my heart that the way for us to do that is to learn to love one another. This we cannot do until we can understand that we have more commonalities than differences. This we cannot do until we understand that we are not separated, but all connected, all branches on one tree.

In the years that remain to me, I desire to do something to help in this effort of reconciliation and cooperation.